The dreaded 10 day…

I wish you could have seen my view tonight.  The sky was this incredible teal color as night was falling.  Stunning!

Unfortunately, today is the dreaded 10 day.  Today is a horrible day.  I have been sitting here for about 30 minutes trying to figure out if I could sit up long enough to write today’s post.  I find if I hold my head to the side – it’s just too heavy today to hold straight up -  and sit in a slightly reclining position (I don’t have a couch yet – just a sports chair and one of those fold-able wooden television tables )  I think I can do it.

Unfortunately, yesterday, my day got away from me.  First Dekker – the black pug – had to go to the  vet.

His illness has flared up so bad that he would run away when I tried to pet him.  His skin was so inflamed and itchy, he just couldn’t stand being touched.  The vet thoroughly checked him out, took lots of blood and put him on a new round of antibiotics, prednisone and anti-histamine  medication.  Two-Hundred and Ten dollars later and we were headed home! He is now resting and sleeping the day away.  Hopefully in a couple of days he will start feeling better.

The unexpected trip tired me a little so I rested, but what came next just totally sucked the life right out of me.  Interestingly, stress seems to do that with these illnesses.

I received news that my father has a mass ‘in’ the lower part of his lung, a growth that is growing on top of it – my mom called it a film – and a hole next to the mass, in his lung as well.  He is having problems breathing and swallowing and his blood pressure has become erratic.  Not the kind of news you want to get.

I handled the news really well actually, but unfortunately my body did not.  I have learned through the years that stress is a major energy stealer.  It will come in and take everything in a moment’s notice.  And it did not let me down today.

This is a really bad crash.  Sore throat, raspy voice that comes and goes, itchy throat, cough, ringing in my ears – I hate that – headache, pain, swollen and painful lymph nodes in my neck and under arms, fuzziness, and malaise.  Also, my skin hurts.  It’s like all the nerves are inflamed and the thought of someone touching my skin, just makes me cringe.

I am so exhausted it sort of feels like someone turned my body inside out.  A commenter on another blog described the exhaustive fatigue like you were being pinned down and you might not be able to get back up.  I agree.  That is a good way to describe it.  Even breathing is an effort today.

Despite my bad day, I thought I would leave you with a funny quote, a pick-me-up, if you will.  So…here goes!

You know it’s a bad day when you put your bra on backwards and it fits better! 

Now, if I can just get enough energy to get out of this chair and crawl back into bed….

Determined to continue forward.