I’m finally at a point, I think, where I can once again get back to my writing. It is funny to me how I am always thinking about writing, but so often, life just seems to continue to get in the way.
Additionally, I have been struggling with what value my words have now that I am finally much better. More importantly, however, I am often thinking about what is the true purpose of 4Wall and A View.
After much introspection, I realized that 4Walls and A View does cover subjects like Fibromyalgia, Myalgic Encephalomyelitis, and Pugs, yet, the real purpose has always been as a vehicle for me to share who I am and what living as Dominique looks like.
So it is back to this purpose that I find myself returning after a long … and necessary … absence.
I am amazed at how loyal my readers have been and am humbled by your continued allegiance.
The end of 2012 and the beginning of 2013 have been wrought with numerous obstacles for me to overcome. Last year ended with me catching that horrible bug that was going around, which unfortunately took me almost a month to get over. Thank God for elderberry Juice! lol
January then greeted me with several minor obstacles to overcome while February was just one huge crisis after another.
If you follow me on Facebook at all, you will know that I had to rush Smash (my pug) to the Vet hospital where he was hospitalized for several days. He got out of my apartment and decided to eat the air freshener cubes in the building’s garbage rooms.
By the time I took him to the Vet, he was vomiting and pooping blood! For me, the realization of yet another poisoning was surreal.
Luckily, I have a great vet, had taken Smash early enough that the poison had not made it to his liver and kidneys, and Smash was a fighter. He is now home and done with his antibiotics and doing much better.
Experience is a wonderful teacher so I now have Smash on a dog version of Amazing Grass, called Barley Dog, as well as, a raw / dry diet and probiotics. [note: Barley dog is not made by Amazing Grass]
I am intimately aware of what chemicals can do in our bodies so Smash’s best chance is in feeding his immune system and gut.
While Smash was in the hospital, a friend of mine and I were in a bad car accident. Almost $6,000 of damage. I did say it was a challenging month, remember~!
What is so amazing to me is that it only took me a week to recover from the accident. I think in part it is because I am better, but I also attribute the fact that I am becoming more and more in tune to how my body functions and what it needs to function as they key reason my recovery was quick.
On a postive front, I am in week seven of my Iron Girls 12 week weight lifting challenge and am loving it. I do very little cardio because the lifting requires me to rest in between the lifting days. For now, that is where my boundary is and I must honor that until my body is ready to move the boundaries wider.
One thing that continues to plague me with the M.E., unfortunately, are gut issues. They have been severe as of late so I am going to start an elimination diet by Dr. Mercola this weekend. I’m also going to start eating according to my body type in hopes to balance out my energy levels even better.
While doing vast amounts of research, I came across this quote by Dr. Mercola. I instantly thought of any and all auto-immune disorders/diseases.
If you either (A) do not eat adequate protein, or (B) cannot digest protein well, or (C) cannot absorb the amino acids from protein, you will develop amino acid deficiencies that ultimately affects the brain and other body process.
My goal for the next sixty days is to balance equally my protein intake with my carb intake. I will be cutting out gluten, grains, processed food, sugar, nuts, peas, corn, cow dairy (only eat raw dairy) and giving my gut a chance to recover.
One of the interesting things I have learned through my research is that the gut takes upwards of year to heal (with absolutely no introduction of problem foods). So my idea that I could cheat here and there, or that all is well after a week or two has been thoroughly challenged.
On the good side, I am sleeping without sleep aids for the first time in 20 years. I attribute that to weight lifting and other forms of exercising I am doing. I cannot tell you how nice it is to go to bed 8 out of 10 times and sleep like a baby.
Having said that, I unfortunately, still have an energy deficit to work with most days.
My hopes and plans for this year are to balance out my energy levels, heal my gut and start losing more weight (have been losing the same 10 pounds for eight months now).
I also intend to get back into my writing. I realize, that in the end, I still have a lot to say.
It’s good to be back. I’m looking forward to connecting with you all and sharing my life with you.
Determined to continue forward,