Book Review: The Eagle Has Crashed by Ted Lacksonen

I recently had a friend ask me to read his new book, The Eagle Has Crashed, and I quickly said yes! Ted has been someone who has been helping me to think outside the box when it comes to the plight of America and politics in general. I respect his opinion deeply and was excited and honored to...

Tag Archives: grief

From Empty to Full

by Dominique on January 17, 2012 - 11 comments

I wanted to share something I have been going through with my readers. This may in fact be more of a woman thing but I think it really is applicable to my whole readership. I have been in a bad head and emotional space these last few months. Totally understandable with Dekker’s one year anniversary (death), my father’s sudden heart-attack and quadruple bypass, the birth of my grandson, a betrayal by someone I considered a friend and the severe relapse …

Posted in Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME) | Tagged 4 walls and a view, consequences, Fibromyalgia, FMS, friend, grief, health, hope, journey, life lessons, loss, ME, Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME), personal, perspective, pugs, Purpose, winning | 11 Comments

Learning to LIVE like a DOG

by Dominique on December 13, 2011 - 18 comments

As I sit here in the early morning hours, I am transfixed by the haphazard sprinkle of lights against the black canvas of night. Silence permeats the cloak of darkness, and yet, there is this innate knowing that city life is slowly awakening to brewing pots of coffee and tea, and that a new day will soon be in full force. The melancholiness of the hour mimicks my heart as I realize that today is the one year anniversary of …

Posted in Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME) | Tagged 4 walls and a view, Dekker, friend, grief, hope, journey, life lessons, loss, Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME), personal, perspective, pugs | 18 Comments

Navigating a Week full of a Myriad of Emotions.

by Dominique on October 9, 2011 - 10 comments

I often find that life offers me many opportunities to become a better me, if you will. This week is no exception. With the news that has been slowly trickling out about WPI (the Whittemore Peterson Institute who researches neuroimmune illnesses) and Judy (a major player in ME research), this week did not start on the best foot. Then the news came of two deaths within the ME Community and for me that has just had me grieving all over …

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i CAN’T do THIS

by Dominique on August 1, 2011 - 18 comments

Note: I had posted on FB that I would have a play that I wrote up for today, but I moved it to Friday. I have this deep sense that this post needed to be published today. An urgency if you will. Please accept my apologies for the change. ___________________________ Several months ago, I ran into a brick wall. Many people on Facebook probably were witness to it. The impact shattered me as if I had been physically slapped. I …

Posted in Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME) | Tagged "i CAN'T do THIS", "myalgic Encephalomyelitis", 4 walls and a view, bad day, friend, grief, health, ME, personal, perspective, Purpose, relapse | 18 Comments

Stand Firm

by Dominique on January 4, 2011 - 20 comments

Grief is a funny thing… These past 3+ weeks since Dekker’s death have been a rollercoaster of emotions. These past few days have found me wanting to move past the grief, and yet, unable to. As I recently told a friend, it felt as if I was stuck in my life and nothing I tried helped me move forward. That is a very hopeless feeling. Several days ago, my friend, Cusp, sent me a note on Facebook telling me about …

Posted in Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME) | Tagged 4 walls and a view, Dekker, grief, journey, life lessons, loss, personal, perspective, pugs | 20 Comments

lessons I learned from a woman with autism

by Dominique on December 28, 2010 - 12 comments

Sometimes life’s lessons come unexpectedly, and from places we could never imagine, such as books, movies – or even, a woman with autism. As you are well aware as a reader of my blog, I have been overcome with grief at having to have my beloved pug, Dekker Black, put to sleep. These past seven years were filled with a companionship I never truly understood until he was gone. While I knew the decision was right for Dekker, it is …

Posted in Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME) | Tagged 4 walls and a view, autism, Dekker, God, grief, life lessons, Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME), pain, perspective, pugs, Templin Gardin, unconditional love | 12 Comments

My apologies

by Dominique on December 17, 2010 - 26 comments

I wanted to apologize up front. I never realized just how utterly devastated I would be over Dekker’s death. I’m really struggling. Writing – other than about my grief – is just too much. And to be honest, even writing about my grief is a challenge. Yesterday was really rough. I awoke to Dekker crying and went to his crate, only to realize it was a box and Dekker wasn’t here anymore. I’m struggling just to make sure I eat …

Posted in Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME) | Tagged 4 walls and a view, Dekker, grief, loss, personal, short break | 26 Comments

to MY little FUNNY FACE

by Dominique on December 16, 2010 - 6 comments

To My Little, Funny Face Though you have lived with me only a few years, Much did abound in picture-perfect memories. That one especially with you and your Kong, A look that said, “Don’t get me wrong.” “To share this with you would be right, but I shall keep it just in spite.” Or that other of you and Bronte, looking into the camera so as to say… “She is my best friend in the world, but, I love you …

Posted in Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME) | Tagged 4 walls and a view, death, Dekker, grief, loss, photography, poem, pugs, saying goodbye | 6 Comments

The Proverbial WALL

by Dominique on July 28, 2010 - 16 comments

I knew it had to come. I was warned by a friend that it would come. And boy did it come …

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Coming to terms with loss and reality

by Dominique on July 20, 2010 - 18 comments

For the past few days I have been sleeping, resting, and sleeping! I have been so utterly exhausted I haven’t been able to do much else. Monday I got out of my ’4Walls’ and went with one of my friends to Tulsa. We decided to hit one of the malls after the errands were all done. It is amazing to me how the smallest thing can suddenly stop me dead in my tracks. I was…