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From Empty to Full
I wanted to share something I have been going through with my readers. This may in fact be more of a woman thing but I think it really is applicable to my whole readership. I have been in a bad head and emotional space these last few months. Totally understandable with Dekker’s one year anniversary (death), my father’s sudden heart-attack and quadruple bypass, the birth of my grandson, a betrayal by someone I considered a friend and the severe relapse …
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Tagged 4 walls and a view, consequences, Fibromyalgia, FMS, friend, grief, health, hope, journey, life lessons, loss, ME, Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME), personal, perspective, pugs, Purpose, winning
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My 12 Changes to Living Better with ME: Part 2 of 2
If you missed the beginning of this two part series, you can catch up with part one HERE. Today, I am going to share changes 7-12 with you. 7. Change Place: As I mentioned in part one, so often when I am in the midst of a wonderful event, spectactular moment or memorable time, I am often only their in body but not spirit and soul. This is probably one of my most challenging changes because I am so annalytical. …
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Tagged 4 walls and a view, consequences, Fibromyalgia, FMS, health, hope, journey, life lessons, loss, ME, Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME), Purpose
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Learning to LIVE like a DOG
As I sit here in the early morning hours, I am transfixed by the haphazard sprinkle of lights against the black canvas of night. Silence permeats the cloak of darkness, and yet, there is this innate knowing that city life is slowly awakening to brewing pots of coffee and tea, and that a new day will soon be in full force. The melancholiness of the hour mimicks my heart as I realize that today is the one year anniversary of …
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Tagged 4 walls and a view, Dekker, friend, grief, hope, journey, life lessons, loss, Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME), personal, perspective, pugs
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Dec 2011 ME Story: Cusp
I have had the joy and fun of getting to know a woman on Facebook this past year or so. She has to be the most unique, creative and interesting person I have had the pleasure to friend in a long time. God only made one Cusp and she is amazing. Her ME story touched me deeply because unlike many of our stories, her story starts in her childhood. I hate this illness for adults but the devastating impact it …
Navigating a Week full of a Myriad of Emotions.
I often find that life offers me many opportunities to become a better me, if you will. This week is no exception. With the news that has been slowly trickling out about WPI (the Whittemore Peterson Institute who researches neuroimmune illnesses) and Judy (a major player in ME research), this week did not start on the best foot. Then the news came of two deaths within the ME Community and for me that has just had me grieving all over …
What Would YOU take?
My friend Mo recently asked a question that really hit home with me on her blog, Mo is Blogging … I think. I decided to ask it here for two reasons. I was curious how my readers might responsd and I was curious if what we would want to take as those living with ME might be different than those who are not ill. This whole subject was started Foster Hunnington. Here is a little about his blog and this …
Stand Firm
Grief is a funny thing… These past 3+ weeks since Dekker’s death have been a rollercoaster of emotions. These past few days have found me wanting to move past the grief, and yet, unable to. As I recently told a friend, it felt as if I was stuck in my life and nothing I tried helped me move forward. That is a very hopeless feeling. Several days ago, my friend, Cusp, sent me a note on Facebook telling me about …
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Tagged 4 walls and a view, Dekker, grief, journey, life lessons, loss, personal, perspective, pugs
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the gift of Dekker’s life through his death
It seems amazing to me that Dekker has been gone a week already. Somehow, I think my heart and soul have yet to get that message. Anyway, I have been thinking a lot about why my grief has been so profound with Dekker’s passing. I lost a close friend who was like my brother in 2007, and the grief was not as consuming as this is. Thursday I thought the grief would literally kill me. My heart was going crazy. …
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Tagged 4 walls and a view, death, Dekker, life, life lessons, loss, pugs
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My apologies
I wanted to apologize up front. I never realized just how utterly devastated I would be over Dekker’s death. I’m really struggling. Writing – other than about my grief – is just too much. And to be honest, even writing about my grief is a challenge. Yesterday was really rough. I awoke to Dekker crying and went to his crate, only to realize it was a box and Dekker wasn’t here anymore. I’m struggling just to make sure I eat …
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Tagged 4 walls and a view, Dekker, grief, loss, personal, short break
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Home is …
I have always thought that home isn’t the structure that I live in but it is the total essence of who I am and how I live in that space. Harriet Beecher Stowe once said …
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Tagged 4 walls and a view, home, loss, Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME), perspective
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The Long Road Home – Part Four
Well, there is always an end to every story and this one has a beautiful ending! The first two days I was here, I really struggled with all the loss, however, once I acknowledged the loss and came to terms with it, I was finally able to move forward. And did I ever! I have to say, I already love it here. The view withstanding, the office people and maintenance people are unbelievably nice! Today…
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Tagged 4 walls and a view, architecture, asthma, Dekker, journey, loss, Oklahoma, photography, Tulsa, view, winning
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NEVER Judge a BOOK by its cover
When I originally decided to join a variety of Blogging 4 Books programs, to be quite honest, I did so to get free books. That was my main motivation. Nothing more, nothing less. At the beginning…
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Tagged Bethany House, books, bridge, connection, familiarity, loss, normalcy, Sneeze, Thomas Nelson
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The Proverbial WALL
I knew it had to come. I was warned by a friend that it would come. And boy did it come …
Posted in Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME)
Tagged 4 walls and a view, grief, loss, mourning, sadness
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Coming to terms with loss and reality
For the past few days I have been sleeping, resting, and sleeping! I have been so utterly exhausted I haven’t been able to do much else. Monday I got out of my ’4Walls’ and went with one of my friends to Tulsa. We decided to hit one of the malls after the errands were all done. It is amazing to me how the smallest thing can suddenly stop me dead in my tracks. I was…
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Tagged 4 walls and a view, chronic fatigue syndrome, cognitive, grief, health, hope, life lessons, loss
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